Emotional Rollercoaster
I realize that people are probably tired of hearing about the tornadoes, but it’s all that I think about.
I have been having bad dreams, not sleeping well, and generally in a funk. I am so thankful that everyone I know was safe, but it’s so hard to see the devastation around us. A high school friend’s house was destroyed.. so many of my own memories in that house. 
The town has really pulled together. I think most people have power. But businesses destroyed. Homes destroyed. It’s so easy for me not to want to leave the comfort of my cocoon. I have power. Internet. A house.
I have been on an emotional rollercoaster in the past 2 weeks… thankful. nostalgic… and angry. Angry at people living their own lives. Tweeting about going to Starbucks or shopping. Do they not know what I see on a daily basis? People trying to pick up the pieces, literally, of their lives and businesses and churches. It’s a complete culture shock. I was so angry for a while about everything. Not about what happened, but how people reacted.
But I have been on that other end of the stick. “Will they not stop talking about Katrina?” Or even now, I am guilty. I have power and internet, so I am back living my life. Like nothing’s changed.
I hate going into town and seeing what has been destroyed. It’s all Addison will talk about. “Look at that damage, Mama. Look at what that mean ol’ tornado did. I am so mad at that tornado- someone needs to kick it’s hiney.” And I’ve even heard, “I don’t want that tornado to eat me. I am scared of tornadoes.” And she keeps asking where so and so’s safe place was. It’s too much. My baby shouldn’t have to worry about things like this.
It’s time like these that I am so proud to be from a place like this. People helping people. It’s what we should do. Not judge others, but offer a helping hand to those who need it.
School started back today. I am hoping for more and more normalcy around here. I know we could all use it.
I am ready for the healing and rebuilding process. I am trying to work on my emotions and get back to a happier place.. one that involves fashion posts and running. 
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I can seriously only imagine the emotional rollercoaster that you must be on. I have never went though something like that…..it makes me sad that Addison knows it all too well at such a young age
Prayers to all in your community that have been affected!!
I can't imagine the devastation you are seeing all around you right now, keeping you in my thoughts!
Thanks for the reminder! Will continue to pray for everyone.
Also, feel free to talk anytime. I don't understand what you're going through, but I can certainly listen! Love you!
I am with you! I am in Mississippi but, lived in Tuscaloosa for almost 5 years recently and worked for The University of Alabama in their Registrar's Office. To think that graduation would have been last Saturday and knowing that it was canceled breaks my heart. It was a tiring day for all of us but, so rewarding. I can't quit watching the news and I can't quit reading the stories. The little town that I currently reside had an EF-5 tornado on the ground through mostly pasture land and the woods. This thing pulled pavement off of the highway and disked up the dirt in the pastures. If it would have came through the town and/or residential area, we would have been wiped off the map. Some homes were hit but, repairable. God is good!! My heart hurts so bad and I can't seem to forget avout it and I don't see the damage in person. We have normalcy here. It could have been us. It could have been my family. For some unknown reason God spared us. I'm not worthy.
Don't feel bad at all about thinking and writing about the tornado. I completely understand where your head is right now (although the tornado I was in wasn't as devastating as yours but it has messed with me emotionally for over 18 years). Never apologize for talking about what you're feeling.
We're praying for you still. Its good to know the community is coming together.
I continue to send lots of love and prayers your way! Keep your head up!
We've tweeted & texted about this so I know exactly where you're coming from.
And it's definitely during times like this I'm proud to be Southern. With a few exceptions, we handle everything with a certain charm & grace.
I feel the SAME way….. Praying for you still!!!