Once a upon a time, in a land far far away, I set a goal for my running. That goal was 2:15. I thought, if I could run that, I’d never complain about running. I’d be happy with that time for ever. After 3 years time, I’ve realized that’s not true for runners. We strive for greatness from ourselves. In November, when I had a 12 minute PR on a half marathon with a time of 2:20, while I was proud of the PR and how far I had come, I was ticked I didn’t break 2:20. I was on the cusp of that 2:15 time goal, that was my elusive white rabbit. I swore then, that I would break 2:15, come hell or high water, but I also realized, that while breaking 2:15 was all well and dandy, it wasn’t good enough anymore. I wanted a 2:10 now.
So, I set my mind to it, and got my training all laid out. I started running outside instead of the treadmill. I forced myself to run on the hillier side of town to prepare for Mercedes. And in the beginning, I felt like I was getting slower. That I was just beating up my body. One evening, I was running with my little group after a couple of weeks of solo runs, and I found myself able to keep up with Shannon, who typically runs off and leaves me. I found myself not slowing down with Donnie, but pushing myself. I found my breathing to come easier and my legs able to take the hills.
I may still hate that hilly Oktoberfest course, but I’ve forced myself to run it. One night last week, I ran it in 27 minutes. 2 minutes faster than I have ever raced a 5K. Those hills don’t hurt like that used to. Don’t get my wrong, they don’t feel good. But I’ve somehow, flipped the switch over to ”just keep going”. It may hurt, but just keep going. My training runs are right on par with a 2:10 half for Sunday. But I know and am trying to prepare myself mentally that I still may not do it. But I could also smoke it out of the water.
It’s been so long since I trained so hard for something, and I really want that number on the clock to reflect the blood, sweat, and tears poured into this training. I know that I am not defined by the number on the clock, but I really want it to read 2:10.
I feel sorry for my coworker… she is getting the majority of my race week neuroses. My piriformis muscle is flaring up and I’ve got a soreness in the arch of my foot. So, naturally, I think I’ve torn a ligament or pulled a muscle. I’m planning on running tonight.. nice and easy. Swimming tomorrow and be done until Sunday. I’m also going to be doing some of the stretching videos this week from FitnessGlo.
I guess now it’s time to just trust the training…
I think setting my goals for 2012 seriously helped me stay focused, so I decided to do it again for 2013. I also want to do a monthly re-cap of how I am doing with these goals, just to keep me in check! Here are my goals for 2013:
- Run/swim/bike a combined total of 1500 miles.
- Run 3 half marathons this Spring.
- Complete 3 tri’s this summer.
- Don’t die during the Ragnar Relay.
- Run a sub 2:15 half marathon.
- Cook dinner every night for an entire week.
- Grow an herb garden and use it!
- Balance between my goals, John’s goals, and what’s good for the girls. Reaching goals take sacrifice for all parties, and it’s very easy to become selfish with what you want, and not what’s best for the family.
- Take the girls on a weekend trip.. somewhere fun but within driving distance.
- Be able to do the splits.
- Continue with cross training and weight training.
- Clean up my eating… being more mindful of what I am putting into my body.
- Go to a Pro Football Game.
What are your goals for 2013? Should I add anything to my list?
Happy New Year, Y’all!!
Two years ago, I made the decision to alter what I eat. I started on Weight Watchers. Was I fat? Nope. But I wasn’t happy when I looked into the mirror, and no matter what anyone would tell me, I decided to do it for me. What flipped the switch for me was the next two pictures.
I started Weight Watchers in the Fall and lost about 10 lbs before the holidays. I switched to My Fitness Pal app in early 2011, and that is what helped me lose the final weight.
I am one of those people who have a realistic goal and an unrealistic goal.
My original weight loss goal was 135, but I also had that unrealistic goal of 130.
My current weight stays around 128.
With losing the weight, I have a gained confidence in myself. Not based on how I look, but how I feel. I don’t avoid mirrors or the camera. I know that I can do anything that I set my mind to.
Do I look into the mirror and see perfection? No way. I see every flaw and everything that I want to tone or tighten. But I know that I am a work in progress.
Total, I lost about 25-30 lbs.
Does the running help? Of course. But I think making better food decisions and portion control was a game changer for me.
Since 2011 was such a rockstar year, I’ve decided to go big or go home with 2012.
Here are my goals for 2012.
- Run a sub 2:15 half marathon.
- get ripped. Meaning.. workout with weights.
- be able to hold a handstand for 30 seconds.. possibly do a handstand push up.
- Run 1,000 for the year. Yep. I said it! Roughly about 21 miles a week.
- make J tiramisu
- grow an herb garden and possibly a small garden for veggies.
- become a superstar at time management!
- I have several photography projects– a project 365 in Instagram, continuing on my Project 52, and a 10 on 10 project.
- Pay off our remaining credit card bill– it’ll be tough, but it’s nice to have goals, right?
- I want us to live on a serious budget for two months.. that’ll be a hard one too!
- I also want to either run a Sprint Tri or a Warrior Dash/Muddy Buddy type event. It’ll be gross, for sure!
- To push myself.. I tend to be lazy and quit when the going gets tough. I need to learn to push through the pain… Right Jana??
- We need to learn to do things JUST for the girls. Not when it’s convenient for us.
Hey y’all! I am still alive! This past week kind of took over my life and I am not very good with balance, apparently. With my family out of the country, I am taking care of tons of things for them, plus blogging for my sister on her adoption blog. I guess I’ve put all of my blogging efforts into hers. Moving on…
Since I have major problems with balancing all the aspects of my life, if you have any tips they are greatly appreciated. How can I balanace running, mom, wife, photographer, small business owner, blogger, social media addict?? I dropped runner and blogger this week in lieu of cleaning my house. It felt wonderful. Plus… decorating my tree became the most stressful event ever. I blame Pinterest to fuel my perfectionist self to decorate the perfect tree. And then Hobby Lobby decided to be out of everything I fell in love with. Why, Hobby Lobby, WHY?!
Anyway, our Elf on the Shelf, Buddy showed up this week.. What’s he been up to?!
On top of normal craziness, Addy had a practice gymnastics meet this past weekend (pictures and video to come) and her first real meet is this weekend. Which means, they added an extra gymnastics practice to each week. As if, two days of 2 hours practices wasn’t enough.
Awesome news ALERT.
I have been chosen to be a FitFluential Ambassador. I am super pumped. Complete with my very own page on their site. You might see some other familiar faces in there. The company just started in April and is growing leaps and bounds. I cannot tell you how excited I am for what is coming in 2012! If you are interested, you can apply to be a FitFluential Ambassador HERE. Be sure to tell them who sent you! Even if you don’t blog, you can apply to be a FitFluential Enthusiast.
I also remembered I used to like to run this week and decided to hop back on that treadmill. It was nice. And it hurt. I have also starting planking every day and trying to do some push-ups… my lack of upper body strength is scary.
What have YOU been up to??
I think I will split my weekend up into the actual race and the rest of the weekend, because it honestly deserves it’s own special post! We arrived in Savannah on Friday and made our way to the Expo, which had terrible logistics. The only way in or out was a bridge or a ferry, since it was on it’s on island. We honestly sat on that bridge for an hour trying to get to the Expo– it was a nightmare. But once we got inside, it went smoothly. I picked up our parking pass for the next morning and of course, had to stop by and purchase a new Running Skirt and some Nuun. I have started buying coffee mugs from places I go, so I wanted to get one for this race, but I didn’t see any, so I ended up buying a new Running Skirt as my race prize. Dad and Karen gave me some money to buy something at the Expo and then I received my very first check for blogging (holla!) and so those two things helped make the purchase of the skirt. Thanks Dad and Karen!!
Anyway, after dinner (More on THAT later!) we headed back to the hotel to get ready for the race. We set the alarms for 4:30. I think I was the only one who slept. My nerves never really kicked in, plus I was super tired from getting up at 4 am that morning to drive down. We got dressed- in 30 minutes! (FOUR women!) and headed to the convention center to park and catch the ferry to the start line.
Sonja and Lindsey
We had access to the VIP area(more on THAT later too!) and enjoyed a yummy breakfast and a potty break before heading to the start line. I made a last minute decision to check my throw away t-shirt.. I’m still not sure how I feel about that one because it was COLD.
It wasn’t so much the cold that hurt it was the WIND. Straight in your face, cut you like a knife, wind.
Lindsey, Kelsie and I were all in corral 18 and Sonja was in corral 22. I ended up seeing my friend Crystal in our corral and she huddled with us. I was super jealous of her jacket and thought about trying to gank it, but she had about 4 inches on me, so I decided to not.
The first corral started at 7:30 and we started close to 8– I thought the corrals went pretty quickly- compared to the way Disney does it.
We were running into the wind and it was COLD. SO cold, that my Garmin was a tad bit loose on my wrist and when it slid up and down, it hurt so bad I felt certain it would bruise me. We made our way on an overpass bridge and I have never understood how people say the miles few by, but they honestly did. We ran in pairs, Kelsie and Lindsey together and myself and Crystal. Before we knew it, we were making a turn (away from the wind) and it was the 5K mark! We knew we wouldn’t be able to run the entire time, but we told each other that if we felt like we could pull away from the group, DO IT. It worked out that we ran around the first 4 miles without stopping. We started doing 1.5 miles of running with a minute or so of walking and it worked out that we were basically walking through the water stations. We did run through some rougher parts of Savannah, but theses people came out to SUPPORT. Cheers and high gives and “Good Mornings!!” all over the place! Crystal split from us around the 5K mark and we started feelings our aches around mile 6. I just kept telling myself “If it feels good, you ain’t doing it right” and “If it were easy, everyone would do it” and it seemed to help me. We were encouraging each other every step of the way and Lindsey was on it saying “we’ve got 1/2 mile until we walk!”
Two Marine Corps passed us- one with an American Flag and the other with a Marine Corp flag. And the girl in front of us, her shirt said “Faster. Mustache.” with a pic of a mustache on it. Get it?? Mustache? Must. Dash?
No matter how we were hurting, this race was flying by! As we rounded the corner to mile 7 we started seeing more crowd support and some extremely funny signs like “Go Stranger GO!” and “She farted. Run FASTER!”
As we rounded into mile 8, I could feel myself fading, but we turned a corner and WOW. Crowds everywhere!! I started high fiving and giving the Alabama (And LSU) peeps ROLL TIDE’s! We were supposed to walk around mile 8, but we just kept on because the crowd was so energizing. I could see Lindsey struggling and I instructed her to get over and get some high five’s immediately! She did as she was told.
We saw even more awesome signs and just remembering them makes me smile.
“Longer. Harder. Faster. It hurts but you get it over with quicker. (That’s what she said.)”
“Your feet hurt from kicking so much ass!”
“May the Course be with you.”
We hit mile 10 and well what do you know? You’ve only got a 5K left at that point! We were hurting but we were so close to making our goal of a sub 2:30 and John kept texting me at my splits saying “You’ve got this! You’re going to make it!!” And it was so awesome to have that support. (Side note. Yes I ran with my phone in my hand. Yes I responded to texts and tweets as best I could while running. It’s a talent, really.) We were running through a gorgeous part of Savannah with historic homes and Spanish Moss hanging off the trees. And then? A wind kicked up like nothing I’ve ever seen and blew dust everyone including into my eyeballs. That didn’t feel good. It’s here where we split from the marathon group and I expected it to thin out. It did not. I spotted a guy in a scream mask staring at me with a sign reading “I told you to run faster.” Yes sir.
We hit mile 12 and it was going to be close to make that sub 2:30 goal, so we decided to empty what we had in our tanks and run with our hearts. We split with each other here. I could still see Kelsie but I lost Lindsey. It really bottled necked through here. It was strange, I knew I was so close to the end, my body wasn’t about to die, my breathing was fine, but it was almost like the nerves of crossing the finish line got to me, and I had to stop and walk. As we came through the shoot, I was in a complete zone. I wouldn’t have noticed if the crowd was naked. We were passing people on the sides and I pretty much hurdled a photographer to cross the finish line- I’m sure they got a lovely shot right up my skirt. I crossed the finish line and it was AMAZING. Y’all. BEST RACE EVER. I felt so good and strong the entire way. I am not ashamed of my time and am extremely proud of it. I trusted in the training from T at Racing with Babes and she did not lead me astray. 2:31:09 Finish Time. I cannot believe it.
Splits were this–
10mile– 1:55:45- right on track with my training
Post Race Mimosa is a MUST.
I have hit mild freak out mode.
I am running my 3rd half marathon on Saturday.
Sometimes it freaks me that I am a runner. If you knew me 10 years ago, you would have laughed at the fact that I run now. It still amazes me that I do this. It has taught me so much about dedication and working for something that you want in life. I think that’s why I love it so much. It teaches me and humbles me everyday.
I tend to think a LOT when the pre-race nerves hit me. I also do a lot of running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off, but whatevs. I think and analyze my training.
I should have done more speed work.
I should have cross trained more.
I haven’t stretched enough.
I didn’t do.. fill in the blank.
But with training for these things… it’s like nothing else. You train. For weeks. It consumes your life. Much like a pregnancy. It’s all you can talk about. In the beginning, the first trimester of training- if you will, you’ve just signed up. Your high on the thrill of what’s to come. Your life is about to change and be consumed with this. You take baby steps– working your way up to running long runs- Running 2 to 3 miles a day, working up to your long run of 5 miles. It’s enjoyable. During your pregnancy first trimester- it, too, is all you can talk about. You have to tell people you are pregnant. You feel different. Maybe you have morning sickness, but most importantly, you know your life is changing.
During the second trimester of your pregnancy, you have energy. You feel better. You are starting to show and people are asking you about it. Is it a boy or a girl? You start planning and dreaming of the nursery. During the second trimester of training, you runs are becoming more challenging, but they are still pretty easy. They pump you up and make you feel good about your training. You visualize crossing that finish line and all the glory that comes with it. You start to find more people that are signed up for the race- much like being pregnant with your friends. Maybe you become better friends with someone is pregnant at the same time as you, or that is training for the same race, simply because you have someone who is reaching for that same goal.
If you have been pregnant before, then you know. That last trimester is pure misery. Those last few weeks?? You want to abolish them from your memory. Nothing is comfortable. You are never comfortable. Sitting on the couch.. sleeping… sitting in a chair. None of it. You are just ready for it to be over with. Time to move onto the next chapter.
That last trimester of training? It hurts. The runs are longer. They tax not only your body, but your mental state. You question why you signed up for this in the first place. Wasn’t life much easier before this became a priority? You have to schedule runs around your social life. Stretching, icing, hydrating. It’s a constant cycle in your life. The week of, you are a wreck. Running around like an insane person. What should I wear? Pack for the trip? Am I drinking enough water? No alcohol or excessive amounts of sweets. It’s just clean eating. You have to take care of your body after all. It’s preparing for something big.
Now it’s time for the delivery. You are nervous with what to expect. Is everything going to go as planned? Fingers crossed..
Before you know it, you are toeing the start line. This. Is. It. No turning back. You are going to leave everything you have out on that course.
The beginning part is easy- the contractions don’t hurt too bad. People are coming to see you and wish you good luck. It’s exciting.
First half of the race is a piece of cake– you are feeling strong.
Second half of delivery? You are begging for the pain meds. Is it too late to turn back? Yes it is.
Second half of the race? Your body hurts. Joints ache. But somehow you push through. You see those last few mile markers, and you know you are so close to the finish line. Maybe you can even see that finisher’s shoot. You push through. One last surge of energy. Then? You cross the finish line. The wave of emotions is so strong. You did it. You finished. You got your medal. Congratulations are everywhere. Maybe you even tear up, because not a lot of people have what it takes to do what you just did.
The glory. The accomplishment. The runners high. It’s all there. And it’s amazing and worth every sore muscle. You overcame that little voice inside your head that said, “You can’t do this.”
That’s what keeps you coming back.